Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in chan_deadcookie's LiveJournal:

Sunday, July 9th, 2006
12:59 pm	it's Dartel's fault!! (Click here to post your own answers for this meme.) × I miss somebody right now.  (not really...) ✓ I don't watch much TV these days. ✓ I own lots of books. × I wear glasses or contact lenses. ✓ I love to play video games.  (vampire ones!) × I've tried marijuana. ✓ I've watched porn movies.  (*blushes*) × I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.  (oh no...) ✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.  (but that doesn't mean i practice it...) ✓ I curse sometimes. ✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.  (who hasn't?) × I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me. ( it goes on... ) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 4th, 2006
5:27 am	boreeeeeeeed no tengo algo que hacer... me pyse a hacer miiiiiiiiles de quizes... no he dormido nada... quiero bailaaaaaaaaaaaaaar!!!! How Will You Die And Why? .:Beautiful Dark Pics:. Your death will be suicide....Most likely because people won't except you or love you or because you hate life itself...You have constent thoughts of suicide daily....and you plan when you will. Someday it will happen....You most likely die alone in your house...with nothing but dark music playing. You'll probably write a sucide note and die right by your bed side.... Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code ****************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************************** What Changeling Noble House are you? (Updated!) You are an Ailil! This Unseelie house is the most manipulative and scheming of any of the noble houses, Seelie or Unseelie. They are also the most stubborn. The number of times an Ailil has acknowledged having been wrong can be counted on one hand. Due to their knack for deception, they often find their way into the political arena. The Ailil are the nominal leaders of the Unseelie Court, and have a long-standing rivalry with the Eiluned. Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code What is your Spirit like? You have the Spirit of the Angel of Sorrow. You are good, but you are also very depressed. You have quite a lot of friends who either pity you, or love you for your kindness. You always smile when people say hello, and reply, but you do so with deep sorrowful eys. You will always be nice, and kind, even with your perpetual sorrow. Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code You are a Blanced Babe! You're direct and to the point, but never dramatic You've got the confidence to speak your mind to anyone But you leave the theatrics to Hollywood Level headed and emotionally stable, no wonder everyone loves you Are You a Drama Queen? Your Deadly Sins Lust: 80% Sloth: 60% Greed: 20% Pride: 20% Wrath: 20% Envy: 0% Gluttony: 0% Chance You'll Go to Hell: 29% You'll die while in the throws of passion - the best way to go. How Sinful Are You? What Your Face Says At first glance, people see you as warm and well-balanced. Overall, your true self is passionate and physical. With friends, you seem dramatic, lively, and quick to react. In love, you seem mysterious and interesting. In stressful situation, you seem like you're oblivious to the stress. What Do People Think Of Your Face? The Cure Shares Your Taste in Music See their whole playlist here (iTunes required) Which Musician (or Group) Shares Your Taste in Music? You Are Scary You even scare scary people sometimes! How Scary Are You? You Are Mud Pie You're the perfect combo of flavor and depth Those who like you give into their impulses What Kind of Pie Are You? Your Quirk Factor: 82% You're beyond quirky... You're downright bizarre. You've lost touch with social norms and what's appropriate. And you're loving every minute of it! How Quirky Are You? You Are a Self Help Book! While your advice is not always welcome... It's always right on target. What Crappy Christmas Gift Are You? You Are 76% Evil You are very evil. And you're too evil to care. Those who love you probably also fear you. A lot. How Evil Are You? Your Inner Blood Type is AB! Your personality is hard to define - you're very unconventional. And even if your personality could be defined, it would be completely different next week! Outgoing and shy, sensitive and thoughtless, you tend to have a very split personality. This makes you unpredictable. You can be a total angel - and a total devil. You are most compatible with: everyone! Famous Type AB's: Jackie Chan and Marilyn Monroe What's Your Inner Blood Type? Your Love Life Secrets Are Looking back on your life, you will only have one true love. You've been deeply wounded in the past, and you're still recovering from that hurt. It's important to you that your lover is very attractive. You like to have someone to show off. In fights, you are able to walk away and calm down. You are able to weather the storm. Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go. Your Love Life Secrets, Revealed Your Dating Purity Score: 73% You are an under-experienced dater. This doesn't mean you're unexperienced - far from it. It just means that there's a lot of romance left to discover! Dating Purity Test Your Haloween Costume Should Be A Mental Patient What Should You Be For Halloween? You Are 64% Open Minded You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded. Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints. But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line. You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself. How Open Minded Are You? You Are 64% Abnormal You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul. You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at high risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is very likely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at high risk for having a social phobia. It is very likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer. How Abnormal Are You? Current Mood: dumb Current Music: Niji - Samurai X (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 1st, 2005
12:28 pm	Click here. Take the quiz. Post your results. ( See chan_deadcookie's results. ) (10 Comments |Comment on this)
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Monday, August 29th, 2005
10:46 pm	Me quiero morir. Me quiero morir. Me volví a cortar y no creo que ahora sea tan sólo por el placer de sentir dolor, de ver la sangre correr, de dejar que lo físico tome ventaja sobre lo abstracto.... Cada vez las heridas son más profundas... tanto interior como exteriormente Y yo sé que no es bueno que pierda el miedo Porque en un determinado momento... puedo... No quiero pensar en eso. Me siento tan malditamente vacía Tan inservible y sin propósito... Me lastima tanto no saber qué me sucede Y que eso lastime a quien yo quiero. Muchas veces he intentado terminar con todo Pero soy cobarde como no tienen idea Y ya no sé si estoy perdiendo el miedo O si estoy acumulando sufrimiento Y como ya dije hoy Por lo menos tres veces... Quisiera saber qué me hace sentir tan... Mal Vacía Inútil Torpe Absurda Patética Sola.. Pero no puedo encontrar la respuesta No entiendo qué me pasa Y si lo entendiese, quizá no estaría dispuesta a aceptarlo. Me duele lastimarme, claro que sí Pero me duele más lastimar a aquellos que quiero Y cuando me hiero a mí misma por esa razón... Pareciera que el dolor es inexistente Y no siento cómo el metal corta mi piel Y no duele Y no percibo nada, excepto alivio Me quiero sentir bien Y esto es lo que hago para sentirme bien No soy más que otra ilusa... que cree que tarde o temprano las cosas salen bien. Aún si eso significa un sacrificio para mi. Un sacrificio absoluto. Current Mood: depressed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 24th, 2005
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Saturday, August 20th, 2005
12:30 am	another one... You scored as In Control.. You are In Control at all times. When you cry - You're gorgeous. Not because of your looks but because you are in control of your emotion and everything you think and feel. You aren't afraid. </td> In Control. 83% Dirty, Black, Free 75% Confused. 75% Believer. 58% Cold as Steel 42% Trapped. 42% What does your soul say about your eyes? created with QuizFarm.com cut me... make me bleed... let me die. Current Mood: brrrr (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 18th, 2005
8:49 pm	and i don't believe it yet You scored as wolf. your a lone wolf...your very independent and usually push people away...your very teritorial if someone steps in you let them now it and to never cross you path again...you love 2 be out in the night ratehr than in the day the moon is your friend </td> wolf 92% horse 83% lion 75% dolphin 67% chimpanzee 58% cheetah 42% what is your inner animal?(gurls only) created with QuizFarm.com I'm mommy's little girl... Current Mood: yaaay! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 15th, 2005
10:56 pm	Esto es muy personal... no debería publicarlo... pero qué demonios No, ya no lo soporto. Me duele cada vez más. No tengo la menor idea de qué estoy haciendo. No soy fuerte, no soy valiente, no soy útil. No soy nada. ¿De qué me sirve vivir, si no soy feliz? Nada de lo que hago me proporciona alegría, río de una forma vacía; sin sentimiento. Nunca me he sentido tan insulsa, mi identidad es una mentira; aún en la honestidad guardo secretos, no tengo a nadie que me acompañe en mi soledad, que pueda verme llorar, que sepa verme como soy en verdad... Cada día amanezco con un inmenso entusiasmo, que para el final del día se ha desvanecido como la neblina ante el viento, dejando tras de sí un mundo de desolación y desengaño, falto de esperanzas. Y cada noche mil lágrimas corren por mi rostro, intentando llevarse toda la pena, la aflicción que queda dentro de mí. Deseos suicidas, perversos; es decir poco. No encuentro la manera de salir de esta prisión hecha de rejas invisibles y venenosas. Nadie puede imaginar cuánto ansío ver correr mi sangre interminablemente, mientras la deliciosa agonía me posee poco a poco; cerrando mis ojos a este mundo, cerrando mi corazón al dolor, y robando vilmente mi alma. La más dulce de las voces no podría describir con suficiente sutileza la crueldad de mi sufrimiento; el sufrimiento desconocido, sin nombre, que recorre mis adentros cada noche con sus manos frías; que destruye mis sueños, de por sí ya frágiles; dejándolos reducidos a simples comerciales televisivos. ¿Acaso mis lágrimas son invisibles? O más bien será que las oculto... Nadie ve a través del dolor en mis ojos, de las cicatrices en mis brazos, de la tristeza de mis trazos al dibujar... De nada sirve la retórica cuando se escribe en el aire, soy nada y soy todo, ¿qué puedo decir? Eubolia, te has apoderado de mí y me has dejado inválida, indefensa ante mi inminente mortalidad. Claro que no controlo lo que me rodea, ni siquiera me controlo a mí misma. Soy el caos y la penumbra; la misma que invade tu mente antes de dormir en inquieta tus pensamientos con paranoia y engaños. Ya te lo he dicho, no he querido rendirme, me han obligado. Mi cabeza pesa demasiado como para sostenerla sobre mis hombros. Estulticia y frenopatía... ¿Será que me que convertido en quimera? En mi propia quimera, sin una gota de vergüenza que ilumine mi rostro de un color carmesí... He perdido todo. He ganado un abismo que se alimenta de mi alma. Sumida en el más irónico kitsch; como si de nada sirviera ahogarse en aguardiente y aroma a incienso; mi patética existencia se va extinguiendo de afuera hacia adentro, mientras mi cuerpo permanece aquí, sin saber qué está pasando... nadie se ha molestado en informarle de su nueva condición de cadáver. .Çhän. Current Mood: drained (1 Comment |Comment on this)